today marked the end of the longest ever break ive experienced since enlisting.. ate alot! due to hari raya haji... and as of tomorro, i have 9 days left. and POP-ed i will be. extremely fast eyh?!
booking in really really soon. (a matter of minutes?) haha
well just thot i'd leave something here.

have a great week ahead people.!.

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i wish i can put camo on my heart. so that how ever hard or slow it beats no one would notice(good cover and concealment dok).
i wish i can keep this up. i have to be able to.
i wish everything was easy. it never is.
i wish i have more time. for everything to take place slowly..

i wish i was superman. but even clark kent hurts alot on the inside.

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time, has never been on my side. or maybe that's just an excuse i give myself for always rushing to get things done. cos the thing is, i have time.. with my family. however much it is week-in, week-out. today, nabil will come home from sweden. gerek kan, pri 3 gi sweden.

sometimes the mind plays tricks on you, or rather what my platoon sg aka my siglap sec senior always says, mind-f***ing.. when u'r always struggling to spend time thinking to ureself, at tekong especially... things at home, the people living away from u... how what u do affects the people u love, the expectations, the potential disappointments, to striving so hard to be a soldier protecting a country which may never go to war. but really, i think its a good thing. i think. i'll update u when i get back from field camp.

meanwhile, things are good. i never saw myself shouting aloud army songs while in left-left-left-right-left step. haha i feel so deprived ryt now.

really cool shite when everyone's in it together. serious. haha

today i want to watch army daze. now i can reallt compare. heh

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as today comes to an end, i have about 6 days left as a pre-ns civilian. i quoting abit from brian.. who's going in on the same day, but unfortunately in the (more) wee hours of the morning.

somehow it dawns on me that what i've sort of been looking for is a new mindset, a fresh way of thinking. time travels in warp speed.i feel pressured to change my most stubborn habits. which i cannot do. i think that can wait till i find myself in one of those bunk beds at one of the companies at school 1.

just now, history was made. haha okae2 la, but all 7 of us went out to jalan raya. to our ustaza's place. i'm gna miss ngaji. for it was one of the most constant things every week. and yes, before i start going all nostalgic and mention all the things that im gna miss, i better stop. take tomorrow and the days after slowly, and not be too slow. i think u know what i mean.

have u ever wondered if we could turn on different modes of ourselves... like how those old nokia phones used to have different profiles which we can just activate or personalise...? they probably still have that, but i wouldn't know. cos im pro sony-ericsson now.. haha but 6 days to go only. sad. haha i'm positive that i'll be using nabil's phone. heh well, back on the subject, i think it's possible. but that will turn u into something. very stale and emotionless. i think. and normal social interactions will prove difficult.

no pictures today. sorry beb. i know it's kind of boring without any visuals. but u really have to bare with me... okae? whoever u are. ;)

Labels: i dunno what to get for abah. hmm